Very sorry to hear of your loss, we had to let go of our family member ZEKE a few years ago and he was our best friend for over 15 years, and many folks that don't have pets or in this case a furry family member... just don't understand.
it took me 2 years to decide to open up to another ball of furry fun, but it does help.
the following message is not intended to make lite of this time, but to help folks understand the love of a pet, and yet not recommended or condoned it does put things into perspective with a touch of humor to sooth the ache .
take your doggy and your spouse and lock them both into the trunk of your car for about an hour and a half, and while they are in there, bang on the lid every 20 minutes or so and make sure they don't fall asleep or loose track of time.
then open the trunk and see which one of them is HAPPY to see you??
peace brother. Mike